Forever More Oblivion

2003-11-19T17:45:00.000-05:00

Just as a side note, really, I've changed my blogging name. I started this with Felina Iyamoto. I changed it yesturday.

2003-05-25T17:04:00.000-04:00

I've thought this over, and I've decided I no longer see the point of keeping a blog. Sorry if you're dissapointed for some obsure reason, but sorry- I just can't keep up with this anymore. Its...ridiculous, I think. I'm usually available if you want to talk or something, since I quite like e-mail and IMs and stuff since the 'net gets rather lonley sometimes. As a farewell present, a link!

Ad Slogan Generator Thing!

Type in a word, it makes a slogan, and boom. Highly amusing.

Just for the record, I typed in Tsukasa (from .hack//SIGN the person is)and it said:

Only Tsukasa has the Answer.

Muahahahaaa.....

2003-05-18T19:44:00.000-04:00

I feel useless. I can't motivate myself to finish my homework, to talk to my friend because we havent had a good talk in ages, to fix my hair, to clean my room, or even do anything that requires moving. I dont even want to be typing right now

hell, i shouldnt even be wasting my time with this

2003-05-15T18:51:00.000-04:00

I'm pretty sure the day I got my braces was June 6, 2000
And today! May 15th! 2003! I got my braces OFF!

YAATTAA!! ^_____^

My teeth feel veeerrrry weird, but hey, its worth it! No more picking at them, no more sore gums from stainless steel, no more monthly checkups. Almost three years of orothodontia (or however you spell it) and I'm freeee. boo-yah. And to all you out there who have braces: hang in there! it is worth it!

And to everyone who will be getting braces: it is as horribly fun as it sounds. muahahaha.

2003-05-04T19:31:00.000-04:00

Go here to hear a song that's a guy on guitar singing for 4:42 about... Butt-Sex. And it's not perverted at all. Seriously.

::falls over laughing::

Oh yes, how pathetic I am. But hey, its funny!

2003-04-27T18:58:00.000-04:00

There are, right now, 1388 people downloading Toriyama World's fansub of Naruto 29. ::is amazed:: I think thats some sort of a record...at least, thats the most poeple I've ever seen leech a file at once from one place...No, I'm not leeching it. I'm d/l-ing the rerelease of Ep.1 and then I'm going to watch 29. ^_^; I love fansubs, its such a great way to spread the love of anime. Just not anything lisenced. After all, there has to be a limit somewhere, right?

2003-04-26T12:01:00.000-04:00

I think I like denial. Denial is nice. Denial like Hikaru-kun running around Honinbo Shuusaku-sensei's grave. Denial that something is gone quite suddenly without warning, without planning, and you just can't quite believe it. I read that part of the manga a while back, and just saw the episodes the other day. That's how I spend my vacations, just watching/reading anime/manga, since I can't really do that during school.

I just heard Hikaru no Go, which has run in Shonen Jump for what, 4 years? Has just come to an end in Jump's most recent edition. Of course, people make mistakes, so mabye it really hasn't, which is what I'd like to believe. But that just wouldnt make much sense, would it? After all, there's only so much you can do with any story.

The wonderful thing about HnG was(is!) how it was(is...) so origonal. I mean, it's a manga dedicated, pretty much, to the old game Go. (Basically, in Go two players place stones, one person black and the other white, on a grided board and attempt to capture the other person's stones and to claim territory on the board, or goban. It is amazingly more complex then that, but thats the shortest explanation). It runs in a Shonen magazine, meaning it's made for boys, and is surrounded by landmarks and world-famous manga. Yet it became a smash hit in it's own right (in my opinion). The art style starts off simple and amusing, kinda cutsey ^_^, as does the story. But whats truly amazing is that the art really develops, and you can see it. Its mildly disturibng to look at one of the latter pictures of Hikaru, and then look at how he was first drawn. About three years or so pass in the manga, and when you look at the art, you can really believe it. Not only that, but every line becomes thought out, and almost delicate-like. Its one of the most deeply artistic Shonen mangas out there, I think. And the plot gets more serious, too. There isnt an abundance of character development, but you can understand all the people pretty well. Hikaru truly grows up and learns to take Go seriously, something that seemed quite impossible in the begining. It's really unique, the whole thing.

What also amused me is that at one point, it had the main rival (Akira-kun) standing alone, gazing at where Hikaru had been, while his hair is tugged at by the wind admist a small cherry blossom shower. Up to this point I thought that was only done in Shojo (girl's) manga. Sometimes it's really fun to be proved wrong, ne? And for some reason, the look of Ogata-sensei vaugly reminded me of Yuki from Gravitation (different jobs, but both pros and quite dedicated to their work. both blonds with similar hairstyles, both like smoking and drinking) but that's probably just me.

I feel so much better now, no more siffles or anything... -.- I guess at this point I'm still wandering around in the graveyard, but I'll find my way out eventually, dont worry ^_^

Oh, and I had an idea. I'm going to try and learn to sew! ::winces:: I just hope I don't completly destory the fabric...its so pretty n_n

2003-04-25T11:23:00.000-04:00

This is just getting out of hand. NOT EVERY DUB IS BAD. Gah. Just because it's been dubbed and aired, most people automaticaly assume it sucks. In most cases, its true. The original is almost always better then the dub (and there are some series that the dub should be mutilated and annihiliated and wiped from the face of this earth) and yes, there are many problems when shows get dubbed. Scenes get edited, meaning always gets lost in the translation, sometimes the music is changed, and sometiems the new voices are awful.

But really, the .hack//SIGN dub is good and I dont get why poeple say the VAs cant act. >.< They think they know everything! Fools! Yes, the origonal in this case is still better (mainly because in Japanese there are at least ways to refer to yourself and other, all with differend sub-meanings. listening to the chars talk gives you a good idea of their personality, sometimes). But. The music in .hack//SIGN's dub is exactly the same (it would be injustice any other way since its so great), the voices are surprisingly accurate, the VAs actually CAN do good voice acting, and the translations aren't bad either! It's dumb founding how dense some people can be -.-

Well, I guess I'll have to apologize if this insults anyone considering everyone's allowed to their own opinion.

And just because it's so fun, D.N.Angel is awesome ^_^ I think the anime is better the manga (a tad easier to understand) and I really think its being nicer to Risa-chan then the manga was, but I could be wrong. Poor Satoshi-kun...he'd look better with darker hair, that he would ::nods:: And I didnt know Darkun knew German, but apparently he does. At least, a little bit

2003-04-18T17:10:00.000-04:00

sayonara... aishita taisetsu na hito
koboreta namida ga yuki ni kawaru
sayonara... naiteta kinou made no boku
shizuka ni me o tojite

sayonara... My beloved, precious person
Spilled tears change into snow
sayonara... Myself who was crying until yesterday
Quietly close your eyes

...

sayonara... aishita taisetsu na hito
kimi e no omoi dake wa kitto nokoru
sayonara... naiteta kinou made no boku
shizuka na yoru da ne

sayonara... My beloved, precious person
Only my feelings for you will surely remain
sayonara... Myself who was crying until yesterday
It's a quiet night, isn't it

Translation w/o permission from Senshi Gakuen
In honor of love short-lived, I guess. For every love lost, too, then. And for every love, everywhere, because there will always be sadness, always be tears.

And no mater how hard your heart becomes, like ice, when there are certain conditions, not even the hardest heart can be unchanged. Tears are the rain of the silent mind, the broken heart which spills blood. Isn't there a reaon they are both salty? Bloody tears of a broken heart. The shattered remains of an oath. The most renown oath. Prehaps the harshest oath. Prehaps the oath that everyone clings to before it is torn from them in a breath of pain. In a single moment- that is all it takes, really. All it takes to shatter. Everything has a pressue point. With enough pressues, at just the right point, everything can break.

And so it does

How foolish I am, I suppose
Because thats all I seem to be able to do
All I can do?
Dreams and thinking and slow- slowly, slowly...
I forget I've never done any of this before
My tears become meaningless, then?

Mabye

Will I never be able to truly see things
Becuase of expectations?

I hope not

I'm not sorry this is so long
I'm just sorry that I can't seem to express myself clearly
Not even to myself

Linday-chan, bestest friend, if you ever read this and know it's me
Please try to understand that
That last phrase
I'm just confused right now
And no, none of this has anything to do with anything else, not this paragraph
This is an island unto itself, even behind those other words
That was for...I don't feel right saying it
This is for you
Please forgive me

2003-04-16T17:31:00.000-04:00

And despite last week's snow, todays temperature was reeeally warm. Yesturday, there were people playing tennis in the park across from my school wearing just sneakers and shorts. It's amazing, really, this weather change.

Oh, this is fun. I've been making a bunch of lists- I call them "Signs of Mania". I'll post a few up if I ever remember to, but heres one I just figured out from watching Naruto (its a really good series, try and find it, ne? ^_^)

You know you watch too much anime when...
You can tell a boy's a boy just by looking at their face and actions, despite him wearing a pink kimono-style dress, having beautifully long/fluffy hair, and speaking very politely. In a very shonen series, too.

Haku-kun~! -^_^- He really cheers me up when I see him, for some reason. I really need it too. I may be on spring break starting today, but I have to memorize a soliliquay (i cant spell so well -.-) (its a long speech thing by a character in a play to the audience). And it's Hamlet's "To be, or not to be" speech to boot, too. According to my teacher, this is the second year in a row that a girl has done this one. That doesnt matter much since its still fun, if depressing. He's contemplating suicide, after all, and quite descriptivly.

2003-04-08T21:48:00.000-04:00

Wooo. It snowed yesturday- it brings new meaning to the term "April Showers". It sure is something lovley when you see trees covered in green buds, daffadil stalks, and yellow-flowered bushes...all covered in snow. It still hasnt melted.

Its sad. Amazon Japan ships from halfway around the world, yet is faster then America's Amazon. Yup, Rebirth came in. Very good indeed.

So tired -.- The world's been wearing me out latley, buts its in a good way. Like...that feeling of weariness after a hard race, but you came out alright, so you know you can still go a lot further. Being pushed to my limits, then realizing I can still go further, is one of the best feelings I can think of. No, it wasnt an actual race (unfortunatly, I'm not as fast as I used to be. its hurts to think, but thats the truth), just the accumilation of everything once agian.

And I finally sent my best friend her birthday gift. ^_^ A burned CD filled with (in my opinion) beautiful music, and Volume 2 of CCS (the Kodansha billingual version, not Tokyopop's version). ::sighs happily:: I'm off now, still hafta get used to Daylight Savings Time...

2003-03-30T08:29:00.000-05:00

I'm trying an experiment. There are on or two things I'd really like to get but aren't being sold in America. Ex: some of Gackt-sama's music. So I'm ordering his Rebirth alum (yes, yes, I know I can get that here, but I dun wanna. its a little less if I order it from there, and this is just to see if it can work) from Amazon Japan. The international shipping prices aren't too bad since its not like I'd do this often- just once in a very long while for something painfully rare. (stop looking at me like that! I really want that album >.< Its not like I'm ordering all 10 Cardcaptor Sakura manga from them ::coughs:: really...)

2003-03-18T22:04:00.000-05:00

A single word in a thousand languages means a thousand things. I just realized that...

Earlier, I saw a painting. I saw it from a distance, and it looked wonderful.

Then I moved closer and saw its flaws. There was some smudging, some smearing. The colors were strange, combonations I'd never seen or conisdered before. The brushstrokes were made by a steady hand, but one that sometimes shook...I took in all these things

And you know what?

All together...they just made it look better

2003-03-13T22:19:00.000-05:00

Well, my math teacher was absent, so an extra night of studying. Or, um, not. I dunno. Too keyed up, too tired, must sleep. Oh, sleep. Your sweet dreams comfort the weary mind, dry the tears of sorrow, heal the wounds of daylight...

::sighs:: To have a friend close at hand and closer to heart who actually takes me seriously...understands deeper concepts...and won't call me crazy. That would be simply lovely, I think. Latley, I've been feeling really lost. People who are much older then me generally wont talk to me because of the age gap. People younger usually don't understand. And the people my age? Forget it. Its frustrating- they insult people for no reason, cant seem to really be serious for more then a few seconds, and just...

You know, its probably just me. I'm just overly critical, its my fault. I dont know why I always think its 'everyone else' when its just...me. I have to get over this, its just my own fault I dont have many people to talk to beyond normal stuff [how are you? howd your day go? lol, did you hear...], I just need to try harder. I need...

Aw, hell. I need sleep. G'night.

2003-03-12T21:24:00.000-05:00

Cowboy Bebop the Movie Is Co~oming!

Wheehee hehehe...I love Cowboy Bebop. I actually didnt like the sound of it when I first heard of it, but surprisesurprise!, I really started to like it when I started watching it. And then I liked it even more when I re-watched it, amazingly. I hope I can go see the movie, though I doubt I will, knowing me.

.hack//SIGN is wonderful, but I've found its subduing to the point of depressing. More on this later, right now I must go study for a math test tomorrow.

Oyasumi!

2003-03-01T21:30:00.000-05:00

Currently, one of my favorite bands is Malice Mizer. In 10 years I'm either going to still really like them, or I'm going to look back and think I was disturbed in the head. I think it's the first, not the second, that'll ring true. Anyway, I finally showed my best friend a few pictures, one of Mana and two of Gackt-sama (two of the band members. Sidenote- Gackt-sama has gona solo, and doing a great job of it, and Mizer itself has disbanded) because [a] I really liked Mana's costume and [b] I wanted her to know what Gackt-sama, my favorite vocalist, looked like

I should've shown her some other pictures. Pretty much, the response I got was '!!!!!!!11!!!!1!!!!!!" She said it wasnt a bad thing, but both of them were transvestites in the worst way. It mae me want to thwap her over her head had she not been across the state border and speaking through IM. Personally, I really dont care one way or the other what anyone else thinks about their image. Yes, Mana looks like a female, and I have repeatedly heard most of Mizer's members being called girls because of a misunderstanding, but thats easily corrected. They are all guys. I then set out to find a picture of the entire band looking unquestionably like men, all of them. I failed quite miserably. Oh well. ^_^; I still love their music

2003-02-28T17:40:00.000-05:00

School Friend and I had a conversation about her new boyfriend today.

"Yesturday, ___ went to the piercing parlor."
"Oh really? What'd he get pierced?"
"Well...[embarassed laugh] You tell her."
[other friend] "Guess. It's not that bad."
"Um, butt?"
"No."
"Eyebrow?"
"Nope."
"Chest?"
"Close..."
"...he got his nipples peirced, didn't he?"
"Yup."

My friends like strange people. Don't even get me started on "Vampire Boy", aka "Shove it" aka "Kei" aka "That creepy guy" aka "::insert real name here::". Mabye some other time.

I have nothing agianst strange people. Actually, I quite like them. They make it all that much more intresting! ^_^

2003-02-27T18:55:00.000-05:00

Well, that approach didn't work well. I can think I'm going to just be passive, but it's apparently impossible for me to be really passive. So I guess I'll throw that theory in the trash. Ho-hum. Um.

Fushigi Yuugi is good. Not the best, but its fun. ^_^ Okay, I've only seen one ep., but whatever. They intorduced Chichiri, I forget the title. Whaaatever. Pretty opening theme, too.

2003-02-26T16:14:00.000-05:00

Well, my "brother" was absent from school agian. But I don't have a bro, just a sister.
Let me explain.
There's a high school in my area I will call "L". "L" has a student who was absent and late often to school, and then summer school, and then had his promotion in doubt. Now, normally, the school calls a kid's house when the kid does any of that. ("This is L high school calling about your child. Your child has...blahblahblah). By some freakish twist of fate, which amuses my family and I to no end, is the fact that this kid, who I'll call "M", gave his school the wrong phone number. So now it's this house getting called instead of his. We haven't heard from L since the begining of the school year, so I guess M is shaping up. Woohoo.

And on a serious note, I have decided to let time progress without my influence for a time. I'm just tired of trying so hard, so I'm taking a little breather. Nothing major, really. ^_^

2003-02-22T16:52:00.000-05:00

I bought a Cd by Malice Mizer, Mervelles. The titles is French for 'marvels'. It fits, since the music they created is simply amazing. It's a shame they broke up, but at least Gackt-sama is still making music. The only problem I have with it is I listened to Syunikiss and now I can't get it out of my head. I feel like I'm drowing, not even listening to other songs get it out of my head for long. The song is beautiful, don't get me wrong, but it'd be nice if I could forget, at least just for a little while.

And excuse me while I go sob in agony, becuase Toonami will be airing two episodes of Evangelion. I don't know if it's my favorite Anime or not, but I've found that it means the most to me, it's the one I care for the most. I guess it has to do with the fact I can look at most of the characters, and see parts of what I've been through, especially Shinji-kun. Or at least, what he goes through in the show, not his past. His present...Anyway, since they're airing it on Toonami that means it will be dubbed. I ABHOR the dub. The lines and the voice actors...Okay, not all of them, but what they did to Shinji-kun is, in my opinion, unforgivable. His VA is awful compared to his Seiyuu, Megumi Ogata-san (she's wonderful, really ^_^). Some VAs I really like (Matt from Digimon, for example) but not this one. Not only does he not do that great of a job, he INSULTED Shinji-kun in a interview! the character he was supposed to be voice! Argh. So frustrating...

2003-02-21T10:20:00.000-05:00

It perturbs me.

Sometimes, I just lay on the floor of my room, staring at my hands. Sometimes my fingers move, and I wonder why. I wonder why I even have hands, or why they look the way they do, why I can move them without thinking...why? I don't know why I do that, it's just something that fascinates me.

Why is every face in some way different, even though there have been trillions of humans over the years? Why is every finger print, every voice print, unique? Our drawings, our writings, our laughs and our feelings... Everything is repeated but a singularity. There are no duplicates.

What is sound? Gravity? Light? Science can only pretend to define them. The internet, by all rights, shouldn't be physically possible. Neither should electricity. Things going in 'bits' and 'mega bytes'...what are they? Can we sense them? No. That doesn't mean they don't exist. But it is deeply confusing to me how we can harness them to make computers and share information. I believe in the unseen, but sometimes technology strikes me as insane.

Sometimes I wonder, and then I wonder why I wonder, and then I wonder if the loop will ever end.
But then agian, thats just plain strange, isn't it?

Hm

2003-02-18T18:10:00.000-05:00

Oh, I almost forgot. XD Yes- FORGOT. Yeesh, it just shows how crazy my trains of thought run- not quite on the same tracks

I was in New Jersey this weekend with my family so we could all take a break from everything. I ended up logging more hours playing Super Mario Bros. Deluxe for the GBC in mabye 3 days then I did for almost over a year. No wonder my head's still hurting... My sister and I went out to see the snow, and ended up in waist-high drifts. We retreated back inside. Actually, we were suppsoed to be back yesturday but that was one helluva storm so we ended up staying an extra night at the hotel. (bad road conditions, lots of snow, the car getting half-burried, yadda yadda). It wasnt too bad, I guess. Even though I was bored stiff a lot. Strange, but I feel rather dumb for mentioning all this. ::shrugs:: I guess its cause there a bazillion people out there who got caught in the same storm so its like "Argh! Dont need to hear this!". Sorry.

2003-02-18T17:40:00.000-05:00

Courage is a fickle thing. One second you feel brave enough to take on anything this sick world can throw at you- then you really stop to think about it and WHOOSH! There goes your courage to, well, where ever courage goes when you lose it. Arrrrgh. At least I have the rest of vacation to think about what I'm going to do on Monday when school starts agian...

::gets her Courage-Radar:: I'm off! To find my backbone! To reclaim my guts! To- you get the idea. ^_^
::ignores the fact that the last time she lost something she left it in an obvious place...and still didnt find it for a reeeeally long time::

Song Playing: Speed Master
Artist: Gackt <3

Dakedo kimi wa koko ni inai
hitorikiri wa, taerarenai

(But you're not here
I can't endure, all alone)

2003-02-14T15:46:00.000-05:00

Issue 02 came in the other day, so now I'm caught up. Wheeeee. And d00d! Naruto! =^_^= Awesome! I think I'm going hyper over every single Shonen Jump series... just cause they're all so great.

Happy Valentines day, minna-san! (-everyone! I say it like that since it's tradition to spend Valentines Day with you're loved one, but since I'm single I don't have anyone to snuggle with. -_- Mabye next year. So I'm spending the Day with manga and Anime. and Japanese, since I love it. Yes, I am pathetic. It's not a new concept)

I'm painting a canvas in art. It's of a Jaguar on safari-style grass, but most of it is a dark sky and a glowing moon. The sky came out nice, I think, but I have never done a flash-and-blood painting. The Jaguar just stares at me with it's mournful eyes, ruing the day I painted it's spots. arrrgggh....

Um. Happy V-Day, and, um, yeah. Ja ne!

2003-02-10T16:25:00.000-05:00

Shonen Jump is crazy, but I love them anyway/because of it. ^_^ Issue 1 just came in.

It reminds me of Harry Potter in some screwed-up way. I read the Harry Potter books in the order 2,3,1,4. Instead of 1-4. It just happened to be the order I got them in. And now 5 is coming out in June, finally! yay!

::sighs happily:: now it really doesn't matter that I lost the district's Story Telling Contest. So happy ^_^

2003-02-09T19:04:00.000-05:00

I came up with a weird phrase the other day.

"Love is a form of having, but to have is not to love."

French class. You amuse me so.

2003-02-07T13:20:00.000-05:00

And apparently the seiyuu of Naruto (from Naruto) is also the seiyuu of Mokuba (from Yu-Gi-Oh). Somehow that just...doesn't add up in my head. Ninja-in-training who's also wild and the container of a fox demon...and a child who's adorable, mature, and loves his brother very much. This lady also does Gomamon from Digimon.Thats just strange.

This has no relevance to life in general. I think thats alright, ne?

2003-02-01T11:29:00.000-05:00

New month. Whoooo.

New things? Sure, why not?

One Piece is funny! ^_^ I was intimidated by the animation, but the manga version is really good. The drawings just take a liiiittle getting used to.

And, for the first time in a month, I think I might have done alright on a French test >_< it's pathetic how pathetic I am in this language. Vocabulary, sure, I'll do great probably. French-English translating I'm not half-bad at. So, of course, the majority of our tests are English-French translating invloving muhmuch grammer and not as much vocabulary. Must remmeber to study grammer structure more... even if it is deathly dull. -_- Ah, well. It's not that bad. I just seem to enjoy complaining about French ^_^; Sorry 'bout that. It's actually become a force of habit. o.o meep

2003-01-31T20:26:00.000-05:00

Is it just me or does Val from Duel Jewl [a band] look a lot like Mitani from Hikaru no Go [a manga/anime series]?

And Shonen Jump is vaugely anatomicaly incorrect. But that could just be me agian. And it doesnt really matter, I suppose. Just a thing to think upon.

Song Playing: Duvet [Serial Expirements Lain Opening] - BoA

2003-01-28T17:50:00.000-05:00

Well, Issues 01 and 02 of Shonen Jump have not yet graced my doorstep. However.

Issue 03 just arrived. Excuse me while I go shriek like a banshiee with joy and read it. Finally. ^______^

2003-01-21T07:06:00.000-05:00

I really hate to admit it, but the dubbers are clever bastards. They are. I mean, the new opening is actually half-way decent. But the original 2nd opening ("Shuffle", sung by the awesome Masami Okui) is better. And the dialouge. -_- Little things, and big things. The fact they pretty much erased any and all mention of the 1st season (yes, there was a season before whats being shown in America. 26 eps and a not-so-great Movie) is quite the acomplishment. It sucks, but there it is. Ah, well.

Good news!! -^_^-
Tokyopop is going to publish Gravitation! They are actually pretty good at translating, I think (well, from what I can tell so there is a good chance they suck but I doubt that ^_^;) and they keep their manga in right-to-left format. yatta!

2003-01-18T12:39:00.000-05:00

My copy of Shonen Jump hasnt come in yet but I get e-mail updates from the site so I can follow along with whats going on

ATTENTION

Shaman King is debuting in Issue 03. Kashiko is gonna be so happy, me thinks. ^_^

'Scuse me for a moment
::goes and sulks in a corner over Yami Malikun's awfulawfulawful dubbed voice:: -_-;

2003-01-17T16:53:00.000-05:00

And it snowed last night. Just wanted to mention that. There's still some snow on the ground, maybe a few milimeters, and it feels like the Artic before Second Impact if you stay out too long

2003-01-16T20:14:00.000-05:00

I think things are starting to look up agian. Except the temperature. Thats just going doooown. But thats a good down. It means snow soon!

I mean, dude, Yu-Gi-Oh! 11 times a week (even if I don't see every episode, it's there!) and new Inu-Yahsa 4 times a week? Its almost too good. It would reeeally be too good if they started playing Candidate for Goddess agian, and new Yuu Yuu Hakusho. But dont get me wrong, I'm happy with the line-up. It leaves juuust enough time for everything else I need to do. Mostly. ::shrugs:: well, something had to give. And well, me being me, what gave was everything I didn't like. Schoolwork fits in these days, regardless. It just has to. Whatever.

Damn, damn, and damn. I'd forgotten this was so relaxing. I should do this more often, I think. Listening to music, blogging. Crying. It's a good release for trapped emotions. I'm one of those pathetic people who dont like crying. But I'm getting over that. Crying is something that is part of us, part of life. If it has a reason, then crying isnt weak at all, or needless. hmm

~I want to change the world
kaze wo kakenukete nanimo osorezu ni
ima yuuki to egao no KAKERA daite
Change my mind
jounetsu tayasazu ni takanaru mirai e
te wo nobaseba kagayakeru hazu sa
It's wonderland~

[I want to change the world
Piercing through the gales, unafraid of anything,
Now I hold my courage and pieces of my smile
Change my mind
If we reach out to the soaring future
without losing our passion, we'll be able to shine,
It's wonderland]

-I Want to Change the World {song}
--V8 {band}
---Inu Yasha's 1st Op {extra!}

2003-01-13T16:54:00.000-05:00

I'm sorry for not updating this page as often as I used to. As if there's that many people reading this. I feel like I'm talking to my wall.
Except, of course, this page doesn't have a poster of a cutie kitty on it. Otherwise I would be talking to my wall. Which I do, strangly enough.

I don't know how to put this. I'm losing intrest in things. Just, life and stuff in general. I'm not scrambling to finish my assignments, not motivated to go for a walk to the water, hurt but not really caring that my friend couldn't talk to me for more then a minute this weekend. I just, sit still and zone out a lot more then usual latley. Hell, I've been away from the internet longer then usual, too.

What is the point of it all?

You finish one assignment, the teacher assigns something new. The water always looks the same. I'm not even disscussing my friend. I'm jealous and I know it. Damn. It really sucks to be jealous of the person who care for more in the worl. -_- I can barley tkae this. I just want to scream and scream but I don't because my throat hurts. I don't even know why I feel this way. I have a good life, you know?

Everything is just too tedious. Boring. Repetive. Over and over and over....

2003-01-01T18:57:00.000-05:00

Happy New Year!

Yeah, a little late =P
My only New Years Resolution this time around is to be able to read Katakana and Hiragana fluently by year's end. I'm not kidding myself- I'll probably never know all of Kanji and that's fine by me. I figure I should also learn how to translate what I'm reading. ^_^; I'm getting better, really I am! I already know about 20 characters. Out of...umm...a lot. And more of the language then I did last year. Hell, I'm almost at the point where I know more Japanese then French. The latter is what I'm forced to take at school. It's weird, I know.

Um, new things, new things... Attempted to figure out IRC (Internet Relay Chat). Failed miserably in the sense I wanted to find/download Gravitation episodes, but I'm working on it. At least I know the basics.

Gackt is good.
Know that.
^_^

He's my new favorite singer. 'Nine Spiral' is getting to me, though. ::sighs:: I love the song, I really do, but it's giving me the creeps.

2002-12-31T22:16:00.000-05:00

Listening to the radio at this hour is intresting. You have deeply strange DJs ranting, various 'Top Songs of the Years', and lovley cultural music that sounds like Survivor's theme song. What a nice way to end the year.

Oh, if you're in the area, visit the Frick Collection. It's a museum, originaly Mr. Frick's house, on the Upper East Side of Manhattan. I was in the city to visit the French Consulat (shool project) but I got to the Consulat a few minutes after it closed. Arrrggh...

I still haven't finished most of my homework, and schools starts up agian the day after tomorrow. I am quite screwed, as the saying goes.

Well, this is the last you'll hear from me for this hour, day, month, year.

Cheers!

2002-12-26T10:06:00.000-05:00

My Problem: I can't fall asleep before about half past midnight. Then I wake up sometime during 5 o'clock. Consecutively for the last several days.

Thing is, if I go back to sleep, I end up having deeply disturbing dreams and when I wake up all my joints ache. But I can't get up at that hour on vacation, I'm too sleepy.

Arrrrgggh...this sucks. -_-

2002-12-13T17:55:00.000-05:00

The following occured several days ago while there was still snow and ice on the gorund and the air was freezing. I've just been too lazy to remember to type it up.

Scene: A Friend and I are talking and walking home from school
Friend: ::whining:: I hate school! I'm such a loser
Me: ::getting fed up:: Well, you are but I'm not!

I then promptly slip on the ice and nearly fall on my rear

Friend: ...You were saying? XD

Thus, you now understand my "status". A single, moronic loser who occasionaly has trouble keeping her balance. Not to mention I have awful timing... -_-

2002-12-09T18:23:00.000-05:00

Just wanted to say I have switched from acoustic guitar to bass.

And yes, I pronounce it "gee-tar" just for the hell of it. Otherwise, my pronounciation would make any professor proud. ^_^ Not as if I have any. -_- ::whines:: I wanna go to college. It sounds so fuuun...::stops:: Ah, well. I'll get there eventually. =D

Song now playing: Life Like Weeds by Modest Mouse
[I could have told you all that I love you
And in the faces you see you'll see just who've you been
I wish I could have told you all...]

2002-12-01T21:35:00.000-05:00

I just got Ayumi Hamasaki's CD "Best". SUCH a lovley voice. ^_^ Reaaally purdy music.

Song now playing: Depend on You

2002-11-30T18:56:00.000-05:00

::takes a deep breath::

Sorry for dissapearing
Happy Thanksgiving!
Hikaru no Go music is good
DBGT in Japanese with no subtitles and understanding about 10 words is FUNFUNFUN AHAHHAHAHAHA!!! -.- or, um, Fun! wheee!
Inu-Yasha = dokidoki (uumm..the mangs soundeffect that pops up when the heartbest is excited. um. I'm weird. um. I don't care =P)
Sai-san = I should stop dreaming of people more then 1,000 years older then me. but so preeeetttyyyy.....
Shonen Jump ISN'T HERE YET!!! ARRRRRRRRGH!!!

::exhales::

^_^

2002-11-22T17:40:00.000-05:00

::slumps::
Damn. It.

My feet. Are going. To kill me. >_<

And if they don't. I will.

::falls over::

-_- zzzzz

2002-11-16T22:29:00.000-05:00

I just found this website that has scanend and translated most of Hikaru no Go. [www.toriyamaworld.com/hikago -I can't be bothered to do HTML code right now-]. I figured, hey, finding almost an entire series scanned and translated is quite rare, and it seems a nice story. Lets read it!

^_____^

Hikaru no Go rocks!!! It really, truly does!! The story is an actual story and even if it isn't completly origonal, most of it is. (::coughs:: Go-gi-oh ::coughs:: ^_~) The artwork is DEFINATLY origonal, and very good. The artist captures facial expressions quite acuretly. From Akira's deadly seriousness, Hikaru's rather carefree attitude, and Sei's sheer delight at playing Go. (so cute!!)

Go read!! ::starts poking with a stick:: Read!

2002-11-04T19:34:00.000-05:00

Yes, I did eventually finished the damned book. Go me. My finger is much better, too ^_^

I found a list a 'star crossed lovers' aka 'a list of couples we adore but the characters are from different anime shows'
::sweatdrops:: a here's where things get intresting

The plausable (Ameria[Slayers] and Wufei[GWing], mild age gap but both Justice finatics to the extreme] to the 'ummm...alrriggght....' (Rei[Eva] and Heero[Gwing], almost identical morals and attitudes, but I'd fear for both of their mental states. and can you even imagine them having a conversion besides 'please pass the bandages'?) to the '...' (Lina Inverse[Slayers] and Vegeta [DBZ]. to you, this may make sense. to me? I'm not commenting.]

Just felt like mentioning that. And yes, all those pairings were listed on the collective site.

Music: 'Bindy' and 'Go Go Cactus Man' (The first one finished half-way through typing)
Cowboy Bebop

2002-10-28T22:20:00.000-05:00

My finger is bloody. Gah. Razors are useful for bookmaking, nothing else.

I have to make a book for school, so I decided to make a carosel book (I've done one before, so I figured it'd be simpler). And it was. It's, um, kind of due tomorrow (I'll be handing it in in 10-11 hours. Damn, that sounds weird. But I'm in that class at 7:37am, so it makes sense.)

Well, I WAS going to hand it in. The annoying thing with carosel books is the following. You need to cutout little details. For that, oyu need a very pointy, perferably very sharp, razor. I have been doing stuff like this for almost two years without incident.

Unfortunatly, the damned razor slipped and slashed my finger. So now I'm sitting here typing with my left middle finger wrapped tightly in gauze after it stopped slowly but steadily bleeding (Which took all of 10 minutes, no exaggeration). Pretty much I'm typing with just 9 fingers, the wounded one throbs too much. It's really not that hard. But I think it's bleeding agian. x.x

I hope my teacher doesn't mind me handing in the book late.

And I have a guitar lesson tomorrow. Crap.

2002-10-26T14:57:00.000-04:00

Well, my best friend has finally done it. She's getting on my nerves.

I don't know why.

Is it because she has such wonderful friends, in her new hometown several states away? (and my friends are...weeeell...there isn't really any nice way to put it.) Is it because she has a guy she really likes (and who really likes her) and who she's platonic with, but everyone is already naming their children and planning their wedding? Is it because I gave her a copy of my CD (burned full of lovley Jpop/rock) and she attempts to sing my favorite track on it (Sleepless Beauty by Nittle Grasper) and comes out off-key? Is it because she looks great no matter what she wears, and I can't find more then a handful of nice outfits? Is it...everything?

I think I'm jealous.

Damn it.

And this was supposed to be a rant on the joy of the fact Otogi will be on Yu-Gi-Oh! next weekend...meaning Malikun (erm, Malik/Marik/Ma-wha?. hehe -^_^-)can't be too far off. ::sighs happily:: so pretty...I can just turn the sound off so I don't have to listen to the bastardization of the voices. ^___^

2002-10-14T10:07:00.000-04:00

"Life is just a dream, you know..."
-Ending theme from Cowboy Bebop

2002-10-13T13:29:00.000-04:00

On his honeymoon, Attilla the Hun died of a nosebleed.

XD

Excuse me while I go laugh insanly. No, I am anot that cruel. If you watch Anime, you know why I think this is so damned funny. If not, e-mail me and I'll tell you. I don't feel like posting it on my blog.

2002-10-12T17:58:00.000-04:00

All hail Tomokazu Seki-san!

Among many others, he is the Seiyuu of Kinomoto Touya [Cardcaptor Sakura], Suzuhara Toji-kun [Evangelion], Casshe Domon-kun [G Gundam], Shindou Shuichi-chan [Gravitation], Van Fanel [Escaflowne], and Shirou Kamui [X].

d00d, this guy ROCKS!!! -^_^- So many of my favorite bishounen are voiced by the same person!
But, ah, what's really creepy though, is he voices Seele [Evangelion] as well. ::shudders:: Shuichi-chan has the same voice as those creepy things...I never knew. o.o Oh well. -^_^- Such a great voice.

2002-10-12T11:00:00.000-04:00

Whoops. No updates since forever. o.o Um...

I finally got Ah! Megami-sama The Movie. ^_^ Ah, no, I haven't sene the actual series or manga. -.- Bit confusing, then? Yup. But it has beautiful artwork, very lovley Seiyuus, and a nice plotline. I ordered it off Amazon, and it was two weeks late due to a detour to Denver. I don't know why.

-
Sound is the impact of air upon an animal's eardrums
If a tree falls in a forest, and no one is around to hear it
It makes no sound
-

This has been your useless update of the day.

2002-10-05T10:54:00.000-04:00

The prep course is twice a week. Wednsdays, it's boring but there's enough blah time so all my practice tests are covered in little doodles and drawings. Silence reigns. Fridays, it's boring, but there's minor pandemonium. Something about the majority of kids being from my class, meaning the enraged smart kids who have to go to shool early, and being forced to stay in school from 7:37am to 4:10pm learning....from free will. On a Friday. Thus, chaos ensues.But really. THE DAYS ARE TOO LONG!!! ARGH!!

And the higher-ups are thinking about lengthening the already too long day by 20 minutes.

"I just made...an enemy of someone
I don't know and they...are uspet about something that I
Must have done...it really doesn't make much sense
And I have no statement in my defense-

BUT!

I know, no matter what, no matter who, no matter what I do
Sombody hates me.
Somebody hates me...
And I hate somebody too."
-Somebody Hates Me [Reel Big Fish]

2002-10-03T19:15:00.000-04:00

I just remembered something else that happened yesturday that proves my life is getting close to meaningless.

[Walking home from school, after a prep course I don't know why I'm taking besides my parents "suggesting" aka forcing me to]

Me: [eyes closed and in a really weird voice] the sun's too bright...but that's alright because I can feel the concrete through my shoes ^____^
Friend: Okay, what're you smoking and can I have some?

I act like I'm on something without even trying. It makes me wonder what would happen if I ever did smoke or get drunk or something.

I really don't want to know. ::shudders::

2002-10-03T19:05:00.000-04:00

So I was in the bathroom yesturday, brushing my hair, when I felt like juggling. I can't really juggle for my life, but I ownz you [online comics about gamers...ah, my grammer suffers -.-] at the one hand toss. I just toss the brush, it spins, I catch it.

So I tossed, it spun, I caught. I tossed, it spun, I caught. I tossed-

It flew.
It hit the wall.
It smashed into the tissue box.
Then fell into the toilet.

-.-

It's offical. I suck.

"It's like a modern work of art...
Disturbing and lacking in heart..."
-The Pretenders, tape 'Viva La Amour!', can't remember song title

2002-09-29T17:33:00.000-04:00

Just finished my Adult Swim tape fom last night, and this was just too funny. I have to blog it. =D From Ep.5[#?] of Inu-Yasha
Situation: Inu-Yasha has been stabbed repeatedly on his chest and Kagome wants to treat the wounds. He isn't very happy with this. Kayete, the old priestess, is talking and walking with several children.

Kayete:...It would help if Inu-Yasha and young Kagome could try and like each other a little more.
Child: [pointing] they do like each other
[Inu-Yasha is on his back, Kagome stradling his waist, pulling at his shirt, Inu clutching her wrists to keep his kimono on]
Kagome: I said take it off!
Inu: What if I don't feel like it?!
Kagome: Undress!
Kayete: [to children] Avert ye eyes! [to Inu and Kagome] Mayhap ye like each other more then I first thought
Me: No, you think? XD

Lesson: When trying to aid half-demons, make sure no one is around to misinterpret the situation. hehehe...

2002-09-20T20:34:00.000-04:00

Spirited Away came out today. I've been doodling that on all my papers today. And my teacher thinks I should be in drama thanks to a perk reading. Why I'm perky when morbid, I dunno.

And someday I will make my own layout to this blog. My own pictures,themes, colors...my own code...

...I just have to figure out how to, first. -.-

2002-09-18T07:21:00.000-04:00

Oh, never mind the Eva question, I figued it out ^_^;

Ok, who's in charge of this season of DBZ?! It's taken months and months to get here...and now it's different.
Piccolo looks like a way-too-tall chibi. Eek. Well, so does Goku, but that's alright. He's not supposed to be scary. But it is rather distracting to think 'KAWAAAAII!!! CHIIIBIIII!!' when it's a dramatic zoom-in. And how Dende ended up with the best VA thus far, I dunno. The only really problem I have with the new season, I guess, is the fact my favorite Saiyans, Goten and Trunks, have been unconciouss for both episodes. Argh...

And divide 10,000 by 15. I dare you.

Music Playing: Kuru Kuru Mirakuru
I'll find the artist later. JPop good. Muahahahaha....

2002-09-15T19:55:00.000-04:00

Just wanted to mention I finally finished watching 'Neon Genesis Evangelion Perfect Collection' last night. the 15th it was, just in case blogger messes up agian and doesn't post this up until tomorrow.

Does anyone know which one comes next, 'End of Evangelion' or 'Death and Rebirth'? Or does it not matter?

2002-09-14T10:35:00.000-04:00

You're paddling a canoe down a river and all 6 wheels fall off. How many pancakes does it take to fill the cat house?

None, because marshmellows don't have bones.

This is too funny. Go to 'SDDI', then scroll down untill you find 'War Games' by Gywnn. That's where I got that quote up there from. You're never gonna guess what happens in the end.

A kinda little treat to everyone in apology for posting that last down-in-the-dumps bit on the 11th

2002-09-11T19:34:00.000-04:00

Well, it's September 11th's one year anniversary. I suppose I should write something 'meaningful' and 'heart warming' and 'reflective'. I know "my city was attacked" and this was "an event of untold horror" and "countless inoccents died", but to tell the truth, I'm rather apathetic towards the whole thing right now. Yeah, when it happened, it hurt pretty bad, but after everything else...I just went numb. I pretty much don't feel much of anything anymore. Too many essays on 'how it effected our way of life and you yourself', as if I want to really share that, too many moments of silence, too much rehashing, to many 'this almost happened but didnt' stories...and really...

I just think of all the millions who die of hunger. I think of the poor souls who died when we hit Japan with those two A-bombs. I think of the namelss people who die, alone, every day, with almost no one to mourn them.

Then I just think, hey, why is it that 6,000 people, 3 destroyed buildings, and collateral damage get so much publicity and so many sayings, as if it's the worst thing that's ever happened. It's not. Do we have a national day of mourning for those we've killed? No.

So I went to school singing 'TV Talk' the whole way there. I stood quiet for two seperate 'moments of silence'. I contributed to the artwork gallery in honor of the WTC. but I didn't let that stop me from having a good day. On the way home I reveled in the wind strom that blew through my neighborhood, thanks to a tropical storm. I forgot everything, and just danced with the wind. I cry inside at the thought of how many died, but I just...can't feel these emotions everyone else expects. I can't feel overwhelming grief, or any grief at all. Complete and utter sorrow, yea, remorse, guilt. I feel immense anger that someone did this to us. But I can't truly hate those who did this to us. I can't stand up in front of the world and say let's go and kill every person who might have had a hand in this. I'm not that kind of person. I just can't feel what the country expects of a teenage New Yorker who rebels agianst society while staying within the system and following the rules. I just can't. And I'm sorry, I know I should say something.

But I just can't feel anything.

2002-09-04T10:53:00.000-04:00

Anime Personality Tests! Weee!!

I'm Ayanami. Was hoping for Shinji. Oh well. I cheated, and took the test agian. I got Suzuhara Toji-kun! But I lost the coding to that one. Blah. And for fear of becoming one of thsoe hyper annoying sites with a billion buttons below the main text because I don't know how to put it anywhere else, I won't put up anything else. And that button's going down in a week anyway. But for the record!
A DBZ quiz said I was Android 18. The irony of this does not escape me. ::evil laugh::

2002-09-04T10:19:00.000-04:00

Today was an accomplishmet. Well, yesturday really. I finally finished reading every single page of Akira, the unabriged manga. It takes up half a draw, all those pages, but it's worth it. If you haven't read it, try to find it. It's a really kick-ass story. I haven't seen the movie yet, so I won't comment on it, but I've heard the sound track. All I can say about the music is, well, it's beyond words. That's how good it is.

2002-08-30T21:01:00.000-04:00

I went running today!! Weeee!! I mean, it's hard to live across the street from a track without using it. I'd forgotten how fun it was to jog and run and walk around in a big circle until it felt like a dagger had been rammed down your gullet when you try to breath. Seriously, it was fun...

And I saw Endless Waltz on Toonami, today! Yay! Tears of joy that they left all theTWO-MIX music in. Actually cringed in horror and clamped my hand over my ears when Zechs spoke. The reports you've heard about him having an awful American voice are completly true. If there was an award for 'Best Japanese VA and Worst American VA' I'd give it to the poor guy. I dunno. Either him or Duo should get it, and maybe a couple of other people I could mention. -_- ::sniffs:: I've never been so ashamed of American Industry. But hey! It's given Heero, and Jounouchi (much gratification to hear my accent on such a good guy ^_^ well, maybe just my neighborhood's tounge, I speak like normal-like. usually.), and Van (Escaflowne) and Yamato (Digimon) with good American voices. So I guess it cant be that bad. And I'm only half-positive Van and Yama have the same VA. Kirby! Morrow! Whoo! Ah, I think that's how it's spelled. ^_^;

2002-08-26T02:19:00.000-04:00

I'm ba~ack...

And ye, I don't feel mind-numbingly joyful anymore. Because I've had a revelation. And it sickens me.

I am not who I thought I was. I thought I was different from everyone. I merely added my own flavor, but like a Game Boy, the difference was only that. The flavor. It's still the same as all the others. I am the same as all the others.

I felt I was being truthful to the world. I was not. I feel shameful because I feel like I've misguided everyone. I'm in love with life, but dream of courting death. I hate myself for that. And yet...If I could just leave it at that, and have everyone pity me, or resent me, or think me a pathetic weakling, I could probably handle that. But that's not it. I know it's wrong, I know why and I even know how to correct the problem. And I loathe being seen as a weakling. That's the deception I feel I show to everyone.

Smiling, cheerful, always laughing, self-confident, never really caring how I looked as long as I felt I looked nice enough.
But most people think that's all there is to me. That's not it by a longshot.
I'm as insecure as the next person, I have the most bizarre urges to get a knife and cut off all the extra fat my sister has been poking fun at lately even though it won't do a thing except probably cripple me, I purposely watch sad things because I like feeling sad and crying on occasion, I use Anime as...well...pretty much everything.
Anime has, either directly or indirectly, found me my most favorite book series in the world, given me a best friend, saved my life through that best friend (long story short, me being the pathetic weakling I am was trying to figure out a way of killing myself, but thought of said friend found through Anime, didn't want to hurt them by leaving them behind, so I just delt with my problems instead of taking the easy way out), it has given me new meaning, new purpose, new lifestyle, new quotes, sayings, habits. Not to mention al the sheer joy I've gotten watching/reading it, the tears I've shed over the angsty parts of it...

You probably don't care. that's alright, I'm not upset. But you took the time to read this, and that means more to me then I can possibly express.

Thank you.

2002-08-07T18:55:00.000-04:00

Sayonara!

I'll be off in the morning, so I won't have a chance to blog/post until...um...sometime around the end of August. Sorry, but my friend's internet connection reaaally sucks, so even though she's got a computer, I can't blog from it. ^_^; Oh well. We'll be too busy goofing off and playing Zelda games to use the computer anyway...woohoo!!!! So, so twitchily happy. She had moved away over two years ago, and I haven't seen her in over a solid year, so this is gonna be so great. Yeah, I'm rambling, so sue me, I won't get a chance to ramble for quite a while, by my method of counting. SO! Off I am to eat dinner, pack, and burn a last-minute CD or two.

Farewell, Folks!

"For the Hell of it, For the Sake of it
For the sheer knowlage of knowing you've done it...
DO IT!"
[in my hand...

2002-08-06T20:41:00.000-04:00

Conflicting emotions. Damn it.

Happy/Excited/Giddily Nervous about upcoming trip. w00t

At the same flippin time! (and yeah, I learned a new British word today thanks to my sis. 'Flippin' means 'fuckin' in good 'ole Britian. Or maybe just England. Who knows? Who care?)

Depressed/Sick to my stomache because I watched the first 3 and a half episodes of Evangelion and I reaaaally want to finish the 4th episode but haven't gotten a chance. argh.

But, hey, kicked the arse of the 8th dungeon's Mini-Boss! And Blood of the Fold (Novel 3 of the Sword of Truth series) might have a butt-ugly cover compared to the other two, but the story is still just as good. Boo-ya. And watch the crazy cult's "Lord Generalk" take control of people by cutting off/stealing a very sensitive peice of skin, having his sister spell it, and then keeping it in a puch by his waist! Oh, fun. And the Mord-Sith are featured once more. Yay! Gotta love those sadistic bitches who are really so sweet, you really do...And yes, I'm mildly deranged. People have been pointing this out to me. But ya know what? I don't really give too much of a damn, unless some psychiatrist points it out...which they haven't...so I think being 'deranged' just means 'really creative, few-to-no inhibitations, too much talking, too much reading, and being able to go from tired and slow to really active and hyper in just a few minutes.'

I'll shut up now.

2002-08-05T17:14:00.000-04:00

MY EVANGELION DVDs CAME IN!!!!

So, so happy. I actually ran aorund shrieking like a banshiee for a few minutes. Quite thankfully, no one was around to hear me. Muahahaha. ^_^

Music Playing
Through the Night [Outlaw Star Opening Theme]
(Contrary to what the title implies, the beat is insanly upbeat. This song is seriously wonderful)

2002-08-03T18:21:00.000-04:00

Oh, just wanted to say I am in the process of wandering through the 8th dungeon of Seasons. Last one! ^_^ And um...doing good on time, for once! Attempting to finish it by Wed. so that means I have about 5 days to beat this dungeon, get into the General's (can't remember his name) castle, beat him, find and kill (locate and terminate) [track and hack] {so many ways to say 'seek and destroy' ^_^} the two remaining 'golden beasts' 'cause I want to, damnit, wreak unholy vengence on all signs in the game because I feel like bashing and smashing them all into litle bits...and breaking myself of the habit of cursing on almost every other breath.

Well, no, I don't curse that much. But it disturbs me that every few minutes I either mentally or verbally curse (English, Japanese, words borrowed fom books...) and it really stinks because while my school friends actually do curse on almost every other breathe, my best friend loathes cursing. So I'm pretty much screwed. Um, in trouble. Argh...

::sighs:: this is gonna be a looong five days...Oh, and once I leave, I won't be able to post agian until
AUGUST 28 because that's the day after I get back. It also happens to be
My Birthday, just for the sake of saying.

Now, off to swing a sword and bash some baddies and stare at some gorgeous fanart of Yoji and Aya and...um... I mean...go eat dinner... i_i no, really...I mean it........

I think

damned canned soda. damn, damn, damn....

Thrice Damned! Yeah, I'm hopelessly screwed....oh well.

AND I LEARNED A NEW WORD!

Deoxyribonucleic acid. dee-oxy-rye-bo-new-clay-ick ass-id. aka DNA! w00t. and I can say three times fast, too.
::is starting to understand why people her age avoid her like there's no tomorrow when she talks too much for too long about too many different things:: -.-

2002-08-01T19:01:00.000-04:00

Midorikawa Hikaru-san is the Seiyuu ('voice actor', for the uninformed) of Heero Yuy from Gundam Wing. So I did a lovley little background check at the Seiyuu Database (link's on the left) to see what other characters he's given a soul to.

He's done everything from from Cowboy Bebob (Lin) to DBZ (Various) to Fushigi Yuugi (Takahome! [and Taka, too, by defaut, no da]{and yeah 'no da' is Chichiri's phrase, but who's gonna know...I'll shut up now}) to...

Yu-Gi-Oh's Seto Kaiba. Dude, this guy rocks
Only slightly more so then Seki Toshihiko-san, Seiyuu of Duo Maxwell ^_^

2002-07-31T19:47:00.000-04:00

And, um, I have to mention this.

Gavitation. Good Anime.
Opening Theme. Very Good.
Except from Opening Theme [Super Drive]- "No, Wanna Sell your Soul"

I'm sorry, but did Yami No Matsuei switch theme songs with Gravitation, or is it just me?
And it's main character is the ulta-cute Suichi...who has pink hair, is thin, is the lead singer in his band, and wears feminine mini-shirts while performing. Just gotta love it, ne? ^_^ ::completly unsarcastic::

2002-07-31T19:40:00.000-04:00

::takes a deep breath::

...

FUCKIN THRICE DAMNED SCREWED TRANSLATOR!! DIEDIEIDEIDIEIDIDE DIIIIIIIEEEEEEEE!!!!!!! )*&@$#_(*&@$_)(*@&$!$@

::breaks down and starts sobbing:: stupid bastard...

-.- ::calms down::

Wanna know what I am so pissed about? Very simple. I have a favorite Yu-Gi-Oh website, that has nice scans of the first manga and a Japanese episode guide, a few lyrics...and GBA screen caps. So anyway, I click the link to go to the page for Duel Monsters 7: Duel City Legend for the heck of it, and scroll down. Okay, wonderful pictures, yadda yadda...And then I see the one that sent me into hysterics.

The 'Daisuke da' scene. You know which one I'm talking about. It even has Yuugi-chan's seiyuu saying the words, me thinks, instead of just text...and guess how that jerk translated it. 'Jounouchi, You're my favorite!'. Am I over-reacting? Possibly. It is possible for 'Daisuke da' to mean you're my favorite, it's multi-purpose and depends on the situation. But I swear on my adoration of Anime that this situation's 'Daisuke da' means 'I love you.' Yuugi-chan said 'I love you, Jounouchi-kun' before throwing the match and letting Jounouchi win, thus sacrificing his life to save his friend's life. Trust me on this, that's how it goes.

And thus I have one thing to say to this 'fansite translator':

Omae O Korosu, Yaro
[I Will Kill You, Bastard]

2002-07-30T20:37:00.000-04:00

I have finally orderd Neon Genesis Evangelion: Perfect Collection on DVD. Go me. And remember my friend who tried to convince me not to get it? She's apparently forgotten that whole incident, and asked repeatedly if I could bring the DVDs with me when I visist her in two weeks or so. Kinda useless, considering she has no DVD player. But I haven't seen her in almost 2 years, so I'm figuring I'll tape a few episodes over to VHS or something...granted the DVDs actually get here in time. ::sighs:: Man, I hate waiting around for stuff like this.

2002-07-28T12:35:00.000-04:00

Don't bottle up your energy. Just...don't. It's not good. Because when you finally let it out....

BOOM!

Yeah. My guitar teacher hates me by now. Oh, well. No loss. He can roll over and die and I won't shed a tear. That sounds cold, I know, but really, he's a jerk. But he's the only good teacher in residence in my neighborhood, so I am stuck. Aw, it could be worse. He could be a really perverted 70-year old with a thing for blond-brunettes. He's just a 40-year old hippie who's mind is slower, I believe, the the galciers. And now I'm just being plain cruel. Heh, whoops.

READ WIZARD'S FIRST RULE NOW, DAMNIT!!

I cannot stress how good this book is. It is mindblowing. It is amazing. It's got action, horror, death, intense romance, comedy, magic, war, a sexy evil bastard who enjoys inflicting pain but is drop-dead gorgeous, a dangerous but magnificant women who's way stronger then I'll ever be, perverness for all the sickos out there(but nothing graphic, it leaves it to the imagination), adventure, a dragon, blood-flies, and um....Yeah. Go read it please.
And it's long. ::sobs in relief:: a book that took me days to finish...THERE IS HOPE!

I have been twitchy ever since it took me only an afternoon to finish a Steven King book. Wonderful story, but it scares me I got through it so quick. It was the green dragon one. Not his longest, not his best, but pretty good. Not the point. The point!

Wizard's First Rule is a Sword of Truth novel, by Terry Goodkind. Read it or I'll go Confessor on you and touch you and then you'd be dying to read it...or...uhm....threaten you with having to feed Zedd for a year? ^_^;

2002-07-19T22:17:00.000-04:00

AND BEFORE I FORGET! (Yeah, I know you want to kill me now, sorry, but this is really amusing).

I watched an interview with Rintaro on the Metropolis DVD (Blockbuster rules for getting the 2-disc set) and it turns out is wasn't a completly voluntary 3-Man Dream Team. He'd actually asked Tezkua if he could do this movie years ago, and the now deceased legend point-blank/flat-out (pick your favorite saying) refused. 'No' with a capitol 'N'.

And then of course this led to that and that led to this and Rintaro ended up talking with Otomo-san and Rintaro had done one or two Tezuka stints already...so badda bing, badda boom, Rintaro gets the rights to make the movie from whoever holds them now, and we were graced with the masterpeice Metropolis.

So I guess it was a 3-Man Dream Team, if not completly so. Especially since this was all done after Tezuka had moved on, and in the interview, Rintaro mentioned (with a nervous laugh) that he was a bit worried about Tezuka haunting him from beyond the grave and all that for making this movie. But it was worth it, me thinks.

And I swear this is the last post you'll hear from me tonight.

2002-07-19T22:10:00.000-04:00

Erm, just to make it crystal clear, Miyu is done by people who's names elude me. The 3-Man Dream Team collaborated on Metropolis. Damn, I wish they'd do a sequel...The ending was just like Otomo-san. You'll know what I mean if you're famailiar with the end (last 50 pages or so) of the manga Akira. He's my second-favorite Manga writer/artist (the first being Kazuki Takahashi, creator of Yuu-Gi-Oh and [in the process] a new breed of rabid fangirl/fanboy]), but I still whish Otomo-san would be a bit more..anno...specific? For cryin' out loud, the endings are so vauge...You gotta love, you really do. I mean, Akira (the manga I mean, I've read it all but haven't seen the movie, it's pathetic, I know) kicks jsut about every ass there is and I love is to pieces. But still...

Argh, I could circle like this for months. But I gotta get out of this room before I melt. It's too damned hot in here. Stupid broken air conditioning...
Tonight's End Statement:

I <3 Akira and all works of Otomo-san. [I dare you, read/watch some of it and not say that. Although it may take a few viewings to actually come to grips he leaves the ending at the fan's mercy...You just gotta love it, really...and I think the weather's made me dangerously repetive. Going to sleep, now. And yes it's a bit earlier then I normaly go to sleep on a sumemr night, but whatever. Up yours too, man. And yes I'm ticked off. The Miyu tape had only 3 episodes and no full-lenght song! and the must was good! and I can't get Evangelion for another month, and I wanna see Akira and...]

I'll stop whining right about now o.o; sorry...::passes out from heat stroke::

2002-07-19T20:07:00.000-04:00

Well, I feel truly awful about no writing/blogging/logging anything in quite some time. Or, at least, that's how it seems to me. Recently watched the first 3 episodes of Vampire Princess Miyu and Metropolis.

!

Directed by Rintaro, screen play by Otomo-san, based on the manga by Tezuka. Wonderful music, breathtaking imagrey, soulful voices, and a plot to tie it all together and make even Akira nod in approval.
Now this is an Anime movie! ^_^ So awesome...Next on the list! Erm, whatever they have at the video store. ^_^;

And I'll be attempting to get the Perect Collection of Evangelion on DVD in about a month, so once I do, umm...Except music videos a year later? Or not, it all depends. =D

2002-07-13T18:44:00.000-04:00

Summer days seem so long, don't they?
And nights seem so short, don't they?

And I don't mean that literally
I don't mean by sunlight and moonlight

The days do seem to stretch, while the nights seem to whither
There is more chance to run and play then to sleep and dream

I miss the winter
The flowers sleep beneath the surface, snuggled safley away
And no one tries to dig them up
And everyone's so please when they come up early
I miss the winter so badly

Because in summer you're expected to be out and about and smiling, laughing, talking
Give me back my winter sleep, please
Don't dig up the flowers

2002-07-12T17:53:00.000-04:00

I just visited blogger.com, and glanced to the left where they have that list of most recently updated blogs, ya know? And guess what? One of them was called 'furikuri!' So, no da, I clicked it. And I bounced to...I dunno. This page that said 'furikuri', done in green/blue pastels, and in (I think) Spanish. Not quite what I was expecting, ne?

And I am now sunburned on my thighs, arms, and cheeks. The rest of me is either un-touched by sun or just oddly tanned. Sensitive skin is such pain occasionaly, me thinks.
Oh, and I finally finished Ninja Scroll. Not as good as I had hoped it to be, but still pretty good. They could've done parts of it less graphically, though. -_-

And am almost done with Seasons 5th dungeon.

2002-07-10T21:30:00.000-04:00

I just remembered a dream I had last night. I almost died in it...third time in just over a week.
It was in a backyard, there were a few other people who I can't rememebr the faces of, I was wearing armour but parts of it fell off. I was being chased by a dinosaur, it almost ate me. There was a lot besides that, but I can't remember it very clearly. I woke up rather suddenly about two hours before my alarm was set to go off. I fell back asleep.

Daydreams carry over to nighttime. I like that, if I was thinking happy thoughts before I went to sleep. This time, I had been thinking about a fanficiton I'm attempting writing in a few months, when I finally watch Evangelion. I was planning on a crossover of GWing and Eva. After I had that dino-death dream, woke up, went back to sleep, I had another dream. It was a little continuation of the dino one, but then it kinda switched. I was wearing a plugsuit, there were these other people there, and I was trying to look into various other rooms. I looked into one, and there was an Eva unit in it. But instead of an entryplug, it had a cockpit, GWing style. (in the front chest area, with a hatch that opened outward.) the hatch was open, and there was a seat. I started looking at the Eva's left hand (besides the cockpit, it was a normal unit). it had a deep gouge on it. I looked at my hand, I had a deep cut on it, identical to the unit's. There was a women there, crying over something, I don't know what.

But I do know one thing for sure: I wasn't just someone in a plugsuit. I was Ikari Shinji in a plugsuit. Uh-huh, yup. I had another dream where I was a boy.

I have dreamt I was Son Gohan (DBZ) (and married to Videl with a baby, for your information), Frodo (Lord of the Rings), and now Shinji. I don't mind at all. In fact, they seem to be my most favorite dreams.

Oh, funny story. When I was about 8 or 9, I was in Girl Scouts, and my troop was joining up with half a dozen other toops for a group Sock Hop. You know, a dance where everyone had to come in costume. (I forget the decade, but think Grease, the movie.) I just knew all the other girls were going to show up in (and I was right, with only 3 exceptions) small pink skirts with poole designs, platform shoes, white blouses, pink button down sweaters. I had nothing even remotly resembling that. So what'd I do? Well, no one said I had to go dressed as a girl, so I went as a boy instead.

Lol, I have this picture of it and I was seriosuly adorable. Blond hair in a short braid, backwards Yankee cap, jeans, sneakers, white t-shirt with the sleeves rolled so it was like a sleevless, and my sister had broken into my Mom's make-up and drawn a make-up tatoo on my arm.

And what's the point of this all? I seriously adore being a girl, I really do. But sometimes I think my head is really screwed up if I want to be a girl, yet lieterally dream of being a boy. Well, you know what? I don't rather care at the moment. I am too sleepy, even if it isnt even 10. I got up too early. So, g'night!

2002-07-10T18:58:00.000-04:00

I have had a long and tiring day. But just because I feel like it: things I like and things I don't, things that are good and things that are bad, and things I just want to randomly say.

In List Form, Too!

Good: Best friends who always talk to you and would never hurt you [even you're being an ass] and you can tell them...well...almost everything
Bad: When said friend is homopohic and you are addicted to shonen-ai

Good: Having almost enough money to buy the entire Evangelion series on DVD, then explaing Eva to best friend, and having them catch on to the whole plotline of it
Bad: When said friend then trys to convince you not to buy it because 'for crying out loud, there's a white human-shaped thing nailed to a red cross in a scientist's lab! and did you know...blahblahblah..' [no, I do not care if they imply Shinji and Kowaru are a couple. hell, that's half the reason why I'm getting the series ^_^]

Good: Beautiful music you will never tire of hearing
Bad: Having a song you love played so often you get sick of it

Good: Shonen-ai and all such things
Bad: When people flame you for it

Good: Knowing your prefrences
Bad: not knowing your prefrences, and getting seriously confused

Good: Blogs. They let you work out your feelings in a way that is not destructive.
Bad: Nothing that I can think of

So! What does this mean?
Naught but nothing to me. Thanks for listening, though.

I finished watching Ran (I think that's what it's called) [directed by Akira something] It's a Japanese interprutating of King Lear by Shakespeare. And I beat the mini-boss of dungeon 4 [Seasons]...just ta let you know

'So lonley inside...so busy out there...
And all you wanted was somebody who cares

I'm sinking slowly, so hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on
Please, can you tell me?
So i can finally see where you go when you're gone...'
...
All you wanted was sombdoy who cares
If you need me, you know I'll be there...
[Michelle Branch, All you wanted. I've always thought of this as a Yuugi/Yuugi song. go figure]

2002-07-08T19:12:00.000-04:00

La di da di da... Why does sumemr always seem so slow and mundane? Eh? Hmm.

No, haven't finished Ninja Scroll. I decided to work on my collection of art. It's rather pitiful, but better then it was a week ago. Joy.

Am I boring you to death?
Yeah?

-_-; sorry...

2002-07-07T20:52:00.000-04:00

Well, Canada's on fire too, now. Hey, anyone know if Australia can catch fire? hmm...Well, at least the smokes clearing.

Raided Blockbuster. Muahaha. Watched Sailor Moon: Hearts Collection 1 (7 episodes of Usagi-chan in, and amazingly my hearing is still intact). The introduction of the gorgeous Haruko and Michiru, which is why I watched it. Cousins my ass. The sub correctly translated koibito as lover, making me very happy. I still can't understand Japanese for my life, but subtitles are wonderful. What's not wonderful is a sister who wants to watch it in the dubbed form. I was about ready to die after one epsidoe. (Michelle!? Tacky lines?! argh...) they screwed up all the best lines, but whatever.

Heh. I bet you can't guess what other thing I rented. It was an actual movie this time. It was...Ninja Scroll! They really didn't have to make it so graphic in parts, but I'm only 24 minutes into it. (had to stop for dinner). So! Off to finish it now. Or finish fixing my collection of Shinji/Kaworu art. Whichever! ^_^ Ja ne!

'If it makes you happy...it can't be that ba~ad
If it makes you happy...then why the hell are you so sad?'
[Sheryl Crow, If it makes you happy]

2002-07-06T18:27:00.000-04:00

When my Mom asked if I wanted to go for a walk a half-hour ago, I figured on warm winds, bright sun, blue skies, and fresh air.

So why the hell am I sititng here with a clogged head and a stinging nose?

For some obscure reasons, the sky was yellow, the tone of everything was yellowish, the wind smelt of smokes and the thrice-damned sun was behind a thick wedge of cloud that covered the sky (the clouds being yellow-tinged), and the SUN was BLOOD RED.

?!

I figured it was from the fires in Colorado and Arizona, but I doubt they could reach the east coast.

Fires are consuming two states, heat is ravaging most of the country, my state has been under drought warnings for weeks....

AND TEXAS IS FLOODED!?

What the fuck?
Can someone please tell me what the fuck is happeneing? Is this the end of the world? Am I going to die? Am I being punished? If I am, why does it have to be with a nose stung from smoke?!

-_-

2002-07-04T18:45:00.000-04:00

HAPPY 4th OF JULY, EVERYONE!

^_^ Wishing you all a kick-ass day

2002-07-03T18:04:00.000-04:00

Hotmail sucks. It just does. Why? Because all of a sudden, it won't let me e-mail Kashiko! -_- damned twitchty hotmail...I guess taht's what you get for using free internet service. I could use AOL, but that's even twitchier. so...how to send? blah. Might as well post it as today's blog. ^_^ Yup yup! Better then a rant about a messed up comic portraying a messed up chess game. That'll be tomorrow. so...

[The following is the letter I attempted to send to Kashiko but damned hotmail refused to. x_x]

Hiya! Sorry if I'm getting on your nerves by now, BUT, I wanted to wish your sister a happy birthday. So!

To Kashiko's sister- HAPPY BIRTHDAY! ^_^ happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear facless-online-favorite penpal's-sister...happy birthday to youuuu! ::ahem:: =D
You can now unplug your ears.

And Mirai-kun says happy b-day too. Dunno about Link, he's rather shy. But I'm sure he hopes you're happy, too.

Unmei wo tobase!/Blow away Destiny!
Felina

p.s. I am overly obessesed with DBZ music -_- [Unmei no Hi]
p.p.s. nope, not regretting the fact you're blogging more, Kashiko ^_^

[end letter]

2002-06-30T19:56:00.000-04:00

I was dragged along to see "Mr.Deeds" today. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, but I still think Sandler's movies are written by immature children. See messed up lines (cross the 'i's and dot the 't's), freaky eyes, lying newsreporters, and the first movie with a female getting kicked in the crotch not once, not twice, but three times. My point is proven. And this funny bit happened in the theatre. I'm not sure if the movie lines are correct, but this is pretty much was happened, I'm serious.

Deeds: And what did you want to be when you grew up?
Stockholder: A magician
Deeds: And what are you now?
Stockholder: I own a pornographic website
[kid 5 rows back: yeah! ::claps::]

And on a different note, I finished a whole dungeon in Seasons without any help at all! Weehee! ^_^ I now have the Essence of Fertile Soil and the the Gift of Time (2 essances down, 6 to go!). And I've found the Temple of Seasons, gotten the Rod of Seasons blessed by the Spirit of Winter. (I can make it winter whenever I want! damnit, I can make it snowy! so cool) Muahahaha. And Ricky the Kangaroo lets me ride aorund in his pouch, punching badguys to virtual hell, and takes me to the swamp. Gotta love it. =D

And I attempted to explain to my Ages friend about Evangelion. Lost her in about two sentances, couldnt convey the sheer horror that is the monstrosity dubbed 'Adam'. (lets see how good your heart feels after watching Rei stab the Spear of Longius into that things chest while you're trying to drink hot chocolate. it's not very pleasent.) I think she thinks Adam is just a mutated human locked up in a basement, not the skyscaper high only-vaugley-human white thing with no legs nailed to a giant red cross, bleeding from the waist and neck, with nails through it's hands, and a mask on it's face. This is why I believe all the interviews of Sadamoto (character designer of Eva) that say he was clinaclly depressed and really messed up either just before Eva, or while creating Eva. But at least my friend understands about the Evas themselves and a few other things.

Gee, taht was a pretty wide range of topics. o.o

2002-06-29T18:56:00.000-04:00

Two quotes!

"WAKE UP! Wake up, damnit! If you're not dead, I'M GONNA KILL YOOOOU!!" - o.o You don't want to know

"You're making the coffee nervous." -You've Got Mail (the movie)

My friend read me her will today. But just the parts concerning the treatement of her body. Everything to no throwing it into volcanoes, oceans, basments, tomato patches, the river (etc, etc), to protecting it from nuclear fallout out and DON'T BURRY ME ALIVE. I was laughing hysterically half-way through. Her voice is waaay too funny.

2002-06-28T17:27:00.000-04:00

Yesturday's comment on Seasons was...under stated.

The game came in yesturday. And I keep seeming to get stuck. Yeesh, for someone who was so awesome at finding all these little shortcuts for my friend in Ocerina Of Time I sure do suck at the little things in this games.

But hey, it's fun, and d00d, it's Zelda. And I'm playing under the name "Mirai". O unhappy people, I will rescue ye! Have no fear, the great Felina is here!

Or, um, run for the nearest bomb shelter, whatever.

2002-06-27T13:38:00.000-04:00

I am so, so screwed.

Situation: I have a best friend who lives far away who I haven't seen in over a year. This summer, I'll be spending almost 2 weeks with her, at her summer house. For the fun of it, we decided to get the dual games 'Zelda: Oracle of Seasons/Ages'. The idea was we would both 'finish' the games, but come summer we would hook them together, and get all the hidden tidbits and final endings you only get if you link the two finished oracle games.
Problem: I have until August 10. And it hasn't come in yet (I ordered it through Amazon). And it's Zelda, damnit. I've knwon people to play Zelda games for over two years and never finish them. (But that was Ocerina of Time). I'm just seriously greatful I'm the one playing Seasons, becasue it's a rock-'em sock-'em type I think, more so then Ages, so hopefully a month will be good enough.

OH!

Furi Kuri (FLCL) is on crack. I swear it is.
It is also created by the "mentally balanced" people who created Evangelion. That should say something to ya. And if not, tremble in fear.

I downloaded a music-vid of FLCL. It was to U2's 'Elevation', and was decently animated. (Quicktime isn't so awesome, occasionaly.) It seemed like a normal mini-series, consistant animation. And only ignoring the girl's (Haruko's) yellow eyes, it seems completly normal. I really liked it, so I downloaded another music vid, at 3am. (I get insomnia on vacation ::shrugs::) This time in DivX format.

Bad move. Bad, bad move.

I am shocked I didn't end up haveing nightmares. (All I remember is I dreamed I was Son Gohan fom DBZ, and my wife Videl was sleeping in the next room and Vegeta was storming aorund downstairs looking for beer so I took the baby Videl was holding to keep it safe, and wandered downstairs to see what was bothering Vegeta, while worried a stalker might kill Videl while I was away. Then I woke up. Nope, not a single nightmare. And this really has no relation to FLCL at all, I just felt like mentioning it. I have bizarre dreams, I guess.) Getting back on track. It had really slick animation, and a really lound, in-your-face rock song. And here is where the demons of hell break lose.

It was like it was going for Maximum Impact in being wacked-out, dememnted, scary, eye-opening, and yet somehow down to earth while switching style almost constantly. And if it's not on crack it's on heroine or something. Someone once commented the animators of GWing had been slipped class-A drugs when they created Trowa (d00d, silent clown in charge of a weapon of mass destruction). Nah, nah. They weren't slipped the drugs, FLCL was.

I think I'm gonna like this series when I find it. Muahahaha. -^_^-

2002-06-24T17:02:00.000-04:00

Why do I love Yuu-gi-oh so much?
I've been asked that. I always reply, 'Just because' or 'I don't know'. Why? It takes a while for me to really explain, and I never get a chance. Until now, that is. I love blogs -^_^-

Okay, I have to admit, when I saw the _very_ first KidsWb promo for it, my first thoguht was 'Aw, crap, not another card playing show. How pathetic.' -_- I can't believe I said that, but if I said it was love at first sight, I'd be lying. Then I saw a small blurb in an Anime 'zine, with a brief description of the show and the picture of Yami Yuugi and Jounouchi (That's Joey for the poor soul who only is familiar with the American version of the show) from the cover of manga 7. [pretty sure it's 7]. Then I'm like, 'hmm...ok...maybe not so bad..' then I saw a promo or two more, then this reaaally long one, that ended with the American Official website. and somewhere in there something in my head clicked, and I'm like "YAY! THIS SHOW ROCKS!" ...and all before it premiered. and before I knew it, I was surfing the web, trying to find more stuff on Yuu-gi-oh. That's when I got hooked. Why? I really, truly don't know.

The bishouen, really, are what caught my eye. Then Yuugi made me look with both eyes, then the plot made stay for the next episode...but to really get into it, I needed a deeper meaning. Then I started seeing double-meanings, hidden definitions, words that matched up with others, mystery...Hell, the only other show I can think of that has more meaning then Yuu-gi-oh is Neon Genesis Evangelion. NOTHING will EVER top Evangelion in the hidden meanings department. And if anything can...be very, very afraid. [Eva rant will be up later or tomorrow. muahahaha]

So that's how Yuu-gi-oh became my new home. The Japanese fan art sites are what convinced me to make a permenant dwelling, though. and, um, the semi-blatant shounen-ai of some of it...and Yuugi telling Jounouchi he loves him. [So, so sweet. Yuugi-chan thoguht he was about to die, sacrificing his own life to save Jounouchi's in Malik's twisted duel, and said 'Daisuke da'. ::eyes turn into little hearts:: awww...I'll never get over it, and I don't want to.] <'Yuugi loves...' rant upcoming in the undefined future.> and read mangas 22/23. they are very, very awsomely good. and now, I must be off!

'i promise not to try not to f_ck with your mind.
I promise not to mind if you go your way and I go mine
I promise not to lie if i'm looking you straight in the eye
I promise not to...not to...not to leave....'
['Promise', Eve 6]

2002-06-23T20:58:00.000-04:00

Oh, my poor fingers. I have been practiceing regularly, and let me tell you- gutiar stings are a bitch! Yes, it will stop hurting when my fingers toughen up, but my skin is sensitive, damnit.

And nicknames! Okay, it took a few days, but I finally remembered!

-You know them as... but I call them...
Yugi...Yuugi, Yuugi-chan, Omote Yuugi, *Play
Yami Yugi...Yami Yuugi, Game King, *Reverse/illegal Play
Yami Marik...Evil Bastard (even more so then Kaiba...and that's saying a lot), Scary d00d, Malik
Yami Bakura...Sexy Evil Bastard (I mean, come on, look at him, and his blatant love of blood and daggers and omote...um...o.o; I think I'll stop now)
Bakura...Bakura-chan, Omote Bakura
Marik...Malik, Malikun, Omote Malik, Mali-chan (he's SO sweet and kawaii!), Mari-chan
Seto...Seahorse*

*I go to Japanese sites a lot, written in Japanese, and I can't read Japanese, so I use an online translator to read them. It always translates the Yuugis names like that, or something smiliar...ditto to Seto. and it just leaves poor Bakura's name in Kanji

And seriously, if you stop to think about it, those names make complete sense. 'Yami' (dark) is, no da, obvious. -chan is an endearment/honorific, and the evil bastards...well...Yami Malik tried to kill both Jounouchi and Yuugi by using the Millenium Rod to get them into a death duel with each other...but it did get Yuugi to say 'Daisuke Da' (meaning everything from I don't hate you to I like you to I love you. I swear, in this context, it's I love you) to Jounouchi. (no count on how many hours of happy giggles ensued) (hell, I'm still deliriously happy over that scene) so I have mostly forgiven Malik.

Sexy Evil Bastard. d00d! Have you ever seen Yami Bakura at his most sadistic? If not, you won't understand. If you have...you get the point.
Remember the quote, "I'm sick, but I'm pretty, baby"? This applies to the Yamis of Yuugi, Bakura, and Malik. Very much so. It's completly insane. They are all bishounen, some more so then others. But they Yamis are all amazingly sadisitc (even Yuugi's, check out the first saga that was never seen in America o.o can we say 'murderer'...?) and very sexy. The Omtoes are pure hearted, sweet, unbearably cute, and still sexy. Now do you see why Yuu-gi-oh is one of the few Shounen mangas to have a huge girl audience? Hmmm?

'damn the Man'- by LUCAS (Weehee! Remembered his name)

Flying away kokoro no mama ni tondeyukitai
Flying away kimi no tame nara sora wo kakeyou Flying…
[Flying away… In my heart, I want to fly away
Flying away… For your sake, let’s run to the sky… flying…]
('Flying Away', an image song of Heero Yuy from GWing)

2002-06-20T20:12:00.000-04:00

Can anyone tell me what "aibou" means?
I'd be really, really grateful if you tell me because this word has popped up and none of the times has anyone given a reasonable answer. Blah.

Oh!

And I am glad I have this blog to write in/on, it keeps me from going insane. I keep hearing people say 'Do you want to play Yuu-gi-oh?' Never to me, of course, I can play but don't have a deck (yet?). Now here's the funny thing. Yuu-gi-oh is the Game King.
No, I don't want to play the Game King
To play with the Game King, though, is a whole other matter entirley

And of course, this sets me off into a whole new train of thought, including Yuugi, Bakura, all of the shows other bishounen (Yamis and Omotes too), daggers, emotional breakdowns, hormones, a secluded room, and..um...yeah, I guess you can see why this would get me in trouble ^_^;
It sets me off into random giggling fits and insane smiles, so to keep the 'Are you okay?'s to a minimum, I try to avoid thinking this stuff at school. Outta school is, quite obviously, a completly different matter.

Erm, sorry if I'm disturbing you today. But, like always, not really sorry. You're here of your own free will. And if you're not under your own power, I thank whoever is holding you captive. With all due respect to freedom and such of course.

And to the uninformed: Bishounen- Pretty Boy (literaly).Yami-Dark. Omote-Surface. You fill in the blanks. My hands are aching (I just had my first guitar lesson and I have extremely sensitive skin on my fingers. Ah, the pain I go through to impress my friend. More on this later) so I'll have a nice, long post later/tomorrow/sometime on guitar lessons and the dozens of nicknames I have for various people...especially Yuugi & Co.

Damn the Man (The cutie black-haired weido who is my favorite character from the movie 'Empire Records' uttered this. I can't rememebr his name. ~_~ And if you haven't seen the video, see it! It's awesome/wonderful/boo-ya!)

(....vanilla coke has a bit much caffine, ne? delicous, though....)

2002-06-18T17:43:00.000-04:00

No, I don't know why I typed that last phrase, either.

::shrugs:: I never said I was perfect.

2002-06-17T16:37:00.000-04:00

WE SHALL HAVE JUSTICE!

I - SHALL - HAVE - HELL - DAMNED - JUS - TICE!

2002-06-16T21:02:00.000-04:00

You know, people have told me to my face I have either 1-almost no self control (mostly my sister says that) or 2-I only do things I want to do.

HA!

If I didn't have any self control, I would be constantly either screaming, crying, or making an ass of myself. Well, I make an ass of myself anyway, but not so often. But it's getting really weird, latley I've had unexplained feelings of murder. That in itself isn't so weird, but it's happening a lot more latley. And not jsut specificaly murder towards the flesh, I want to take random objects and smash them into the nearest wall/skull. Hm. This may not be a good thing.

Radio is now playing: The Beautiful People (Marylin Manson)
I hate the dude's guts, and loathe all his songs...except this one o.o

2002-06-15T12:49:00.000-04:00

I have a new friend -^_^-
I was in SWC (Star Wars Chat, the room where SW is never mentioned, lol) and we were all rambling on. Then we drifted to GWing. I said Duo was mine. Vinex said Duo was his. We mock aruged. He claimed Hiiro, too. I started hyperventilating. We both calmed down. Then I asked if anyone else wondered what Duo and Hiiro's kids would look like, if they could have kids. I said they'd be gorgeous. And to my amazement, Vinex sniffed and said yea, they would be. They shocked me to no end. And _then_ he started complaing he'd had this one really good picture of Hiiro and Duo underwater. I swear my heart nearly stopped fom shock.

I kenw what picture it was! It was my favorite. And I thoguht no one else had ever seen it. I asked him, 'really?! You had it?!' "I DID!" 'I DO!' "!" "SEND!"
It was absolutly hilarious. So I sent him the piccy and the site link. And it was the right pciture! YAY! Such a beautiful picture ::happy sigh::

I just love him to peices. Course, he already has a girlfriend, me thinks, so damn it. Well, acutally, my friend has already claimed him. But I doubt she is aware that he is as addicted to shonen-ai as I was/probably still am. AND I STILL REFUSE TO TURN THIS INTO A BOY-RANT SITE!!! I've been up all night so that's the only excuse I have for posting this and I'm sticking to it. ^_^

And I had to tell someone. Really, I did.

Music: (Zelda series, Majoras Mask) Goron Village

2002-06-14T20:01:00.000-04:00

It's National Ass-Smacking Day!
...Or, well, it is to my friend Jia...
No, no one smacked me, and I saw no one smacking anyone else, so I'm going with 'it's all in her head'. Which wouldn't surprise me considering I saw trying to kill Tommy with her coat. Agian. Those two get theri coatts, or coat and sleeve, and start slapping each other, I believe because they are both overly-hyper. And yes, Tommy is a boy. In a kawaii way. But it insanly short x_x Blah. He's annoying, anyway. And NO! I REFUSE to turn this into a boyfriend-want site! HAHAHAHA!

I am hoplessly addicted to the matters of the heart. That doesn't mean I will rant about all the boy I know in real life =P
Excluding, of course, my future boyfriend. Whoever that might be. But considering no boy has ever even /thought/ of me that way, I guess your safe from lovestuck ramblings for the time. -_-

Meaning untill the the next Yu-Gi-Oh epsisode ^_^;

Music of Choice: Curel Angel's Thesis (Neon Genesis Evangelion)

Zankoku na tenshi no you ni
Shounen yo shinwa ni nare
(Like an angel with no sense of mercy,
Boy, be a legend)

2002-06-13T20:22:00.000-04:00

La, la, la, la...It's my life (Tooi Kono Machi De- Cardcaptor Sakura)

I guess by now you can tell I'm addicted to music. ^_^;
Well, this sucks. I had this nice long post all typed up, I hit 'publish'...
And my DSL connection goes on the fritz, and I loose it. Agian. Argh.
So! I must re-type. Bare with me, folks

Yesturday was _awesome_. Why? School was hell. I don't care. I was depressed agian for most the day. I don't care. I went out for pizza with 2 friends after school. Oh well.
We got caught in the rain.
-^_^-

I adore the rain. I just do. And there was thunder and lightening and dark blue skies, too!
We were walking home, so for me it was about 10 blocks in the rain, last one I sprinted. It varied from a light drizzle to serious dowpour. Needless to say, I was soaked from head to toe by the time I got home, half an hour late. Whoops.

And I can count the remaining days of school with one digit! Finally! That much closer to summer break, and more internet time.

I read somewhere, 'You can either go through life crying all the time, or laugh at the world'

Right now I'm laughing with all my heart
Why?
It's been a good day, my friend

2002-06-12T18:49:00.000-04:00

I _knew_ volunteering would pay off someday
I have not seen the inside of my school's cafeteria for many months, joy., due to the fact I help out in the guidance counseler's joint offices. An unexpected perk is I have acess to the MASTER LIST OF DOOM. aka a list of /all/ students in the building, plus classes, plus phone number. muahahaha.

Today's funny names!

Jackie Chan

I swear, some poor kid in my school is named for the only martial arts master with his own TV show
And...

Rashid Maxwell
Depending on whether you know of Gundam Wing or not, you will be either left indiffernt or dropped to the floor laughing or sent running/crying
Am I making this up? Of course not. If I had my way, it'd be Hiiro Maxwell. They'd have really awesome kids. 0_0; or, um, not...
Sorry ^_^; But not really

I'm sick but I'm pretty, baby (Alanis Morisette, Hand in my Pocket)

2002-06-11T16:14:00.000-04:00

[You might want to plug your ears]
::takes a deep breath::
::screams::

SHONEN JUMP IS COMING TO AMERICA!!!!! YEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSS!!!!!!!
WAAHOO!!!!

^_^ Shonen Jump KICKS_ALL_ASS and THEN some! For those who don't know, Shonen (Which I've always spelt /Shounen/) Jump is a boys magazine, mostly dedicated to Anime, that runs in Japan. I was actually considering getting it in Japanese, but I dont know nearly enough Japanese and it was too expensive. But they are now going to be publishing it in America! In English! Times like these make me glad I never comitted suicide ^_^

And yea, it's a boys 'zine, and I'm a girl, I don't care.
It's GOOD, I tell you!
You know why? It'll have all these new manga/comics I''ve never heard of, plus Pokemon, Dragon Ball Z, Astro Boy, and....YU-GI-OH!

Oh sweet, sweet, day...